I've been thinking a lot about achievement lately. Here I am binging on House of Cards, a Netflix series about politicians climbing their way up the administrative ladder, doing the exact opposite which is sitting on the couch. The irony right?? I am being partially productive by multitasking. There has been this pounding in my heart that I should write this particular book. I've been avoiding it because I know it would be a daunting task. There are so many intricacies because I know the story needs to be told so the same thing does not happen to another young woman out there. One of the reasons it has been weighing on me is because it was the most traumatic experience in my life. It literally opened my eyes to the potential evils out there. Most people who know me say that I'm strong. I just think of any occurrence in my life could not be as nearly as awful as what I went through over 10 years ago.
The good news is that last night I wrote. And when I wrote, I felt okay. It wasn't awful. This was extremely motivational. I guess after years of self therapy and prayer that I am actually over it. But then why write a book? I sincerely believe this story will put things into perspective. I am not not unlike many people out there in the world. I was a young girl who was influenced by a man with a big dream. What is also really great great about the story is that this influential man was arrested over a year ago for grand larceny, just to add to the pot.
It's just time. I've written draft after draft over the years and I know that it will be a great addition to the literary world. It's the story I was meant to write. They say if God keeps telling you to do something then you should do it and the more time I put off, the more guilty I feel.
Yep, gotta do it. Now if I could just figure out how to finish watching House of Cards and get back to being productive.
