So what I want what I want!

After my last experience in an attempted relationship had failed so relentlessly, it has taken almost a year to get over.  Only the last 6 months, I have been able to even fathom the idea of giving my heart to another person.  What angers me is the fact that, yes, I'm ready for a relationship but no, I'm not going to end up with the first guy who comes along and makes me laugh. I don't want to come across as full of myself but I have worth.  I'm a very independent, self sufficient, intelligent woman.  Yes, I grew up in an atmosphere where the woman was expected to be domesticated (I'm Puerto Rican) and tend to her family, but I'm also Americanized enough that I would not be taken for granted. No offense to those women with old fashioned values, to each their own.  Not my cup of tea.

I recently came out of a situation where I was really happy hanging out with a particular guy but I could not get over his immaturity.  I won't go into the details because I don't think it would be fair to him however I will say I'm not your sugar mama nor can you treat me like a girlfriend but then tell me you don't want a relationship.  You can't have your cake and eat it too!

My point is, I would prefer my next relationship to my last (if that's

possible), not a trial one.  I am picky because I feel as if I deserve to be.  Maybe I might self entitled, but all women should feel self worth enough to end up with someone that will treat them like the queens they are.